Post by Tatsu on Apr 7, 2009 23:30:23 GMT -5
All Jak characters are owned by naughty dog.
Organization sin and nephra, Remi, Tatsu, are owned by me.
Adelaide is owned by DeAnna Morgen.
Kiera is owned by Kiera Cain.
Kylina is owned by Kylina Foster.
Two months ago this day. Two months ago was my devastating day, the day my world shattered. The day I could never forget, my heart broke into two lifeless dark pieces the day so wretched to me was the day my beloved Tatsu died, my husband. Tatsu was the world to me, he meant so much that I would give the ultimate sacrifice, my life for his. Losing a loved one is never easy, not on me, or my friends. “Life is like a rose, thorns along the way but in the end it’s worth it.” He used to say. I always loved that verse but now… now what does it mean to me. How was his end worth it to me? My life is nothing but a thorn now.
Looking through this city, the city of light I always called it. Haven was my home, my birthplace, and my heritage. No matter what I was a part of Haven, I always thought it was because of Tatsu, since he was connected to it. I see everyone going to my stadium, my water stadium. Five years ago Tatsu and me had this wonderful idea, the idea that would let me sing to the people, they didn’t have to pay a thing. The water stadium is made of pure metal; the only thing keeping it up in the water is the one large pillar under it, its support beam… just like I need one. I was twenty at the time and it was Tatsu and my only project. It was the only way for me to truly be with him for one last big event. Now that he’s gone I made a few modifications to the place, two months of not having any concerts scared me, it frightened me to think I would just go back to work. Now at the entrance, above where I sing, in light Eco says. “In memory of Tatsu, the light sage and Father. But also far most, husband to me, Nephra.” I created that for the only way haven can remember him truly. Not by what he’s done for the people, but what he was to me, what he did for me. I was driving, well flying pretty fast, dodging other zoomers along the way. Nifty things in my opinions, it was easier than crowding the streets with any land vehicles. I was about five miles away from the stadium, I knew all my friends were going to be there, but I was in no hurry… to be honest I didn’t want to see them… mainly because they reminded me of him.
As I drove further and further my heart was beating slower and slower, as if time would stop for a second. It wasn’t to long before I noticed I was flying over the water, now I was about two miles away. I looked down in the water to see my reflection, to see if I truly did look like a person who lost their only love. I looked hard and in the water I didn’t see my reflection, I was shocked I swerved out of order and nearly hit another zoomer. In a split second I returned back in the line, the thing that shocked me so much was that it wasn’t my reflection; instead it was Tatsu’s. It was so perfect, his pure white hair with silvery tips were like I remembered. His scared face was peacefully as always… but the most thing that shocked me was his eyes. His pure white eyes showed love and passion, happiness… happiness he never, well hardly showed. It felt like he was still here…
My heart ached now, like someone had just thrown a match into my soul. I picked up speed now wanting to get to the stadium and get the concert over with. I flew fast, faster than before. I looked over to the city; the buildings were regaining their normal ways again. I came to the entrance of the water stadium, there I say many parked zoomers and many people walking in. Families, wives, husbands, children came. I flew past all of them and into the back of the stage, where I always parked. My head shifted and I saw their zoomers all parked in the little slots… my heart stopped for a moment. I drove to the one that said “Diva” in big letters, there I came to the ground more and turned the engine off. The zoomer’s pads came and I felt the plump hit to the ground. There I sat looking down to the pure cold ground… feeling the tears starting to come. I’m hoping someone would come for me… just hoping. “Nephra.” A sweet young girls voice hit my ears. I looked over at her, my hair swaying to the ground. A big clunk was heard when my hook of the braid hit the ground, my ears twitched for the moment from the loud noise. I saw Keira, Samos’s girl, a loving girl. Her hair was green as ever just like I remembered it two months ago. She wore nice clothing, more nice than my braw shirt and half dress. I smiled, trying to hide my sadness. “Every one is out back waiting for you, they want to talk to you before the concert begins.” Keira had a sweet voice to me, one that would touch anyone’s soul… just like mine. “Okay, I’ll be right back their hun.” I didn’t want to but I had to, it was my duty. She smiled and elegantly walked away. Once she was gone I slammed my head on the controls of the zoomer. “Why am I here?” I knew no one was around but still. My body fumbled to the ground tired and worn out. The last two months were hard…especially to Remi. To me it was good Remi wasn’t here… she needed time to cry to herself, be alone for now.
Rose-Remi Love White is my, and Tatsu’s child. She was born four years ago. She meant the world to him and me. Every day I would see him holding her, loving her in his stupid fatherly way. He would always try and make her say Daddy, or Momma, or Divaliciouse… that never worked out really. She had two kinds of eco in her system, Dark and Light. She got the light from her father and the dark from me. She was unique and with the eco in her she aged faster, her mind grew and so did her body. Now everyone presumes I adopted her since she looks eight instead of four. She was indeed the love of our life… she was our world.
I slowly walked to the back where the group was. I turned the corner of the stage and behind the curtains standing still looking my way were Ashelin, Torn, Samos, Keira, Jak and Daxter. To their right, standing behind them was Adelaide, Goro, Kiera, Zelina, Kylina, and Jake. I smiled to them all and made my way up. “Hello Nephra.” I heard Jak say in his sweet comforting voice. “Hello brudha.” I mimicked my families’ accent; it was fun and always gave me a thrill… but not this time. Jak’s hair was blond at the top but green at the roots. His eyes were pure blue and beautiful to me. He was wearing his same old jacket and jeans for when he raced, that didn’t surprise me much. Samos the green eco sage walked up to me, grabbing my hand softly. He was short and old, hair grey as the clouds coming. His skin was green like grass; it was the eco flowing through his body that made him so unique. The thing that freaked me out the most was that his shoes were log pieces and he had a log on his head. I shouldn’t be thinking that mainly because I wore no shoes and only just a braw shirt and half dress… along with my Tattoo’s that went up from my right breast to the right side of my face. “Are you sure you want to do this dear?” His elderly, fatherly voice kicked in. I smiled to him. “Yes, I am ready. The people need me now more than ever. I bring them hope to stand strong and fight for their beliefs.” I always did that, and it was true I knew everyone looked up to me, they saw me as a pure heart when in fact my heart was tainted of darkness. “Well if you ever need me, let your Eco flow.” Samos replied turning to his daughter. Eco was the source of life in our world. Green Eco made life, Red Eco gave power, Blue Eco brought electricity along with speed, Yellow Eco brought weapons, and dark brought destruction and light brought peace. Only few in this world could hold the Eco’s and call themselves sages. I was the sage of dark, I consumed dark Eco and was not affected by it, and except for when I grow mad my demon shows. Keira sweetly glided to me, she wrapped her arms around my waist and hugged me tightly. “I’m sorry Nephra.” She sweetly said. I was shocked at first but I returned the hug and smiled. “There is no reason to be sad child. Nor should you be sorry.” I had to be a mother too all that was my philosophy since I was little. “Oh come on! We all know you are sad and depressed, you have no right just thinking his death was okay to you!” Adelaide’s deep harsh voice yelled into the room. Everyone looked at her; Keira let go of me and returned back to Jak’s arms. Adelaide was tall for one of us, she wore a tight tank top and half pants, showing some of her skin at the tops. She had boots with horns, long horns at the bottom, on the metal part. Her gloves had the same horns but smaller. She had pure dark hair with red highlights. Her face was strong and powerful, eyes closed. She opened them up, revealing pure red eyes. “Stop it Nephra! Just stop! I mean come on we all know it hurts you and that it hurts us so don’t act like everything is okay.” Adelaide’s voice was harsh to me, of coarse she was angry and I don’t blame her. Adelaide was the Red Eco sage; she appeared to be more powerful than the Eco itself since only her eyes are red. Adelaide was the new leader of organization sin. The old leader was my husband, but since he passed away she has all the claim to the organization. She always seemed like a good leader to me. Her sin was Wrath as my husbands was sloth.
I just simply looked at her, my eyes were hurt of coarse but I couldn’t show them my tears. “This organization lost their most important member, we lost our Father! Our Mentor!” She continued to yell at me. Tatsu was always a father figure to them, he taught everything they needed to know, each one slowly earning their ranks as sages. “Yes, it does hurt me, it hurts deeply but I must live through it. You all have the right to be sad, I simply don’t want you to however. Every day I wake up screaming the top of my lungs off, reliving that night all over again.” I looked at her now; my words were true and righteous. I saw her face; it was crushed and vulnerable for anyone to attack. Tears slowly came down; I couldn’t help but walk over and take her in my arms, holding her for the moment. She wrapped her arms around me and began crying harder and harder. “Adelaide, you must stay strong, this organization needs you. Tatsu is gone, there’s nothing we can do about it.” It hurt me to say those words so much, knowing truly there was nothing I could do. Adelaide brought her head up to mine and looked into my eyes. “I know but still.” She let out more tears. She pushed herself away from me and back to the group of sins. “Adelaide never let him go, always remember him.” My words meant nothing to me anymore. They were just useless things in times like these; all I gave was false hope. Adelaide wiped the tears from her face and looked at me, she smiled. “I know, I’m sorry Neph.” Before I could reply she took off out into the stadium. The rest of the group fallowed her.
The group of friends looked at me now. They all seemed to want to leave and get to their seats before I go. “Hey Nephra, we got to go sit down, you show in two minutes.” Torn said in his rough voice. He was the Freedom leagues leader, he was the Chief in command of the army. I smiled and bowed my head. “Of coarse, go now.” I wanted them to leave now, being with them just hurt to much. All of them walked off of the stage and into the stadium, all but one, Jak. Jak looked at me for a moment. “We’ll miss him… he was my brother you know.” His ears were now pointing down. “I know… as you are my brother now. Jak he wanted you to be Remi’s godfather, her guardian in case anything happened.” I had always remembered that no matter what. I told Tatsu when the time comes I’ll tell him. The time came and I was ready for Remi to have her godfather be Jak. Jak smiled to me, his ears rising now. “I’ll be happy to be the little rug rats godfather.” He walked up to me and gave me hug. I hugged back. “Go along now, get to your seat and tell the others I am going on stage.” I pushed him out of the area and walked back to the curtains.
Here I go, Here I will sing for the crowd of thousands and make them happy… make him happy. The curtains opened and I walked further up. There I saw a microphone standing, waiting for me. I grabbed it and began to remember him. “I am here today to sing to my husband. I am here in his honor to remember him and for all of you to remember him.” I couldn’t believe I was doing this now, how could I? I set the microphone down and stood back. My feet lightly glided back to where I was three feet from the microphone. The crowd stood silent here I am scared now. “His ring is sitting by the lamp, the one he brought to me. It blocked the people, it stopped the time, He’s never leave that one, so he cant be really gone.” My voice was loud enough to hit the whole stadium. I saw everyone’s mouths dropped I was shocked. I wasn’t going to stop now, not here not ever. “The dress he bought on Christmas Eve, he laughed and said it called to me, It's like it’s waiting in the closet, For me to slip it on, So, he can't be really gone, I don't know when he'll come back, he must intend to come back, I've seen the error of my ways, Don't waste the tears on me, What more proof do you need, Just look around the room, So much of him remains.” I started to remember the first time we met it was in Havens prison.
I was running through a dark hall, the guards chasing me, shooting at me. I was determined to find him, to find the sage and set him free. Looking at the cells I finally came to one with a man in white in it, Tatsu. I kicked the door open and ran in looking at him. I was horrified; there were thousands of scars on him… he looked like hell itself to me. I started to act; I grabbed his chains and unlocked them with a key I stole from the guard. “Who’s bothering me?” He asked in a low voice. “My name is Nephra and I am here to help you sage.” I replied in fear. “The only thing beautiful in here is you now, use to be the wall.” He chuckled at that. I smiled to, when I released the final one he fell down, I caught him right before he hit the ground. “Come on.” I pulled him out. I then ran to the garbage shoots. “Ready.” I had already pushed him down in and I went after. Before long we landed in the slums of Haven.
I looked out into the audience now. I knew I had to continue. “His book is lying on the bed, the two of moons to mark his page, now who could ever walk away at chapter 21, so, he can't be really gone.” I felt tears coming they were rushing fast now. I looked away from the crowd. I heard them all gasp, then felt a sudden pain in my legs. I looked down and saw I was on the ground, my eyes were full of tears my heart hurting more and more. I looked up and saw Jak running over to me, I knew I had to get out of here. I got myself back up and started to run, I ran fast. I passed the organization; Adelaide smiled to me and put her hand in front of Jak to stop him. I was out before I heard what happened. I rushed to my zoomer; I jumped on it and started it. Before long I was off and over the water. Tears formed more and more. My heart hurt more and more, nothing I could do would make this sadness go away. The zoomer went fast, before long I was at the beach, his and mine. The zoomer came to halt and it landed on the ground. Shifting my body to the side I jumped off and ran onto the beach. I began to remember his proposal to me… the day he became my fiancé.
It was a warm evening, his hand was wrapped around mine and we walked perfectly out on the beach. He wore shorts and a tank top for once in his life something typical and not unusual. His skin was soft and he was so perfect to me. We came to a stop and he looked at me, I smiled to him and wrapped my arms around his waist. He smiled back and kissed my forehead with his nice, light lips. I chuckled inside and returned the kiss by kissing his neck. His neck was smooth, sweet in my opinion. “How long have we been seeing each other?” He asked putting his arms around my waist. “A year now.” Something was up and I felt it in my blood. The year was rough on us and I knew it so much it wasn’t funny anymore. Him being a sage was the best thing to me, by the next year I became a sage. “Well…” He let go of me and grabbed something from his pocket. My heart had rushed and the blood rose to my head I was amazed at how easily I could be love struck so fast. He bent on his knee and out came a wedding ring, before he could say anything I had jumped on him, yelling yes I would. This memory was dear to me it was truly wonderful. I looked out to the beach and saw the water coming to me, I lightly sat down and looked further, tears still came down. I felt the next memory in me, the time Tatsu and me married.
Five years ago, wedding bells rang. I was walking down the beach in a white gown and flowers in my hands. That day was the happiest day of my life, the day I was finally taken. I held on to the flowers tight, not wanting to let them go. My heart was racing and my mind wandering. As I walked down I could see Jay and Victor holding my back dress up. Jay and Victor were muse brothers. They were a mix between a cat and a weasel. Those two were my family members, well what was left. I looked further along and saw the sage’s standing together. Tatsu was in black with a tie, while Samos our friend was holding a book. I smiled to them and walked further… my feet felt heavy and I was drowning in pure utter happiness. I saw my parents standing there, tears in their eyes as tears in mine. I walked up to the two and smiled widely. Samos began to talk and before long we were wedded. That was the happiest day of my life. I brought my lips up to his and kissed him sweetly. Thus our vows were sworn. My memories were fading now, like they were going to a distance. The finale one… the one that haunted me so much was the day he died… two months ago.
I woke up next to him; his sweet face was pure and loving. He seemed to be waiting for me to wake up. “Hey there big guy.” I said to him not knowing. His eyes looked at mine and he tried to smile but couldn’t. I saw this and got up. I picked his head up and noticed something was wrong. “Tatsu speak dear! Move, do something!” I remembered yelling. I was frantic at that time… for sure I had thought he was going… right there. I remembered Remi walking in and looking, I had told her to call the medics. An hour had passed before they came; I never let him out of my arms. When the medics took off I grabbed Remi and we headed down to the hospital. There I ran up to his room… the doctors and green sage was in there… Samos. They pushed me out, not wanting me to see him… that hurt more than anything. It felt like days before someone came out, I didn’t know what was going on… my heart was shredding more and more. Finally Samos came out with a sad face, his face was destructive and hard for me to know. I ran to him and started to raise my voice. “What’s wrong? Where is he! Can I see him!” I remembered yelling. Samos just looked up at me. “I need to call the group… Neph… I’m sorry but…” I ran past him before he could finish. My eyes were full of tears, tears of fear of losing my love. The room was filled with docters just walking away. I looked and saw him in the bed… eyes closed and shirt off. I hit the floor with my knees… right there I was afraid. “Nephh… come here please.” I heard him say weakly… that broke me. I got up and ran to him, I grabbed his hand. “Baby please don’t go! Please don’t do this to me!” I yelled crying. He looked at me and smiled. “Life is like a rose… Thorns along the way… but in the end it’s worth it.” He put his hand on my cheek and smiled. “Tell Remi I love her, make sure she becomes a great person.” He said after. My heart shattered and I knew this was the end… “Don’t, please don’t! you vowed to stay with me forever!” I yelled in pain. “And I will be… I love you neph.” He lightly kissed my hand… there he never spoke again. My knees hit the ground, my hand never leaving his. I stayed for an hour before Jak and Torn had to carry me away. They took me in the hall; tears were in their eyes too.
That memory haunted me every night. I would dream of him next to me, but then vanishes. I felt a hand on my shoulder; I was shocked but instantly looked up. There for a moment I thought I saw Tatsu… but it was Jak, my heart burned with a thousand flames. He sat next to me. I put my head on his shoulder, there crying for all that I lost. “Life is like a rose, thorns along the way but in the end it’s worth it.” He use to say… my love.
Organization sin and nephra, Remi, Tatsu, are owned by me.
Adelaide is owned by DeAnna Morgen.
Kiera is owned by Kiera Cain.
Kylina is owned by Kylina Foster.
Can’t Be Really Gone
By: Vincent
Two months ago this day. Two months ago was my devastating day, the day my world shattered. The day I could never forget, my heart broke into two lifeless dark pieces the day so wretched to me was the day my beloved Tatsu died, my husband. Tatsu was the world to me, he meant so much that I would give the ultimate sacrifice, my life for his. Losing a loved one is never easy, not on me, or my friends. “Life is like a rose, thorns along the way but in the end it’s worth it.” He used to say. I always loved that verse but now… now what does it mean to me. How was his end worth it to me? My life is nothing but a thorn now.
Looking through this city, the city of light I always called it. Haven was my home, my birthplace, and my heritage. No matter what I was a part of Haven, I always thought it was because of Tatsu, since he was connected to it. I see everyone going to my stadium, my water stadium. Five years ago Tatsu and me had this wonderful idea, the idea that would let me sing to the people, they didn’t have to pay a thing. The water stadium is made of pure metal; the only thing keeping it up in the water is the one large pillar under it, its support beam… just like I need one. I was twenty at the time and it was Tatsu and my only project. It was the only way for me to truly be with him for one last big event. Now that he’s gone I made a few modifications to the place, two months of not having any concerts scared me, it frightened me to think I would just go back to work. Now at the entrance, above where I sing, in light Eco says. “In memory of Tatsu, the light sage and Father. But also far most, husband to me, Nephra.” I created that for the only way haven can remember him truly. Not by what he’s done for the people, but what he was to me, what he did for me. I was driving, well flying pretty fast, dodging other zoomers along the way. Nifty things in my opinions, it was easier than crowding the streets with any land vehicles. I was about five miles away from the stadium, I knew all my friends were going to be there, but I was in no hurry… to be honest I didn’t want to see them… mainly because they reminded me of him.
As I drove further and further my heart was beating slower and slower, as if time would stop for a second. It wasn’t to long before I noticed I was flying over the water, now I was about two miles away. I looked down in the water to see my reflection, to see if I truly did look like a person who lost their only love. I looked hard and in the water I didn’t see my reflection, I was shocked I swerved out of order and nearly hit another zoomer. In a split second I returned back in the line, the thing that shocked me so much was that it wasn’t my reflection; instead it was Tatsu’s. It was so perfect, his pure white hair with silvery tips were like I remembered. His scared face was peacefully as always… but the most thing that shocked me was his eyes. His pure white eyes showed love and passion, happiness… happiness he never, well hardly showed. It felt like he was still here…
My heart ached now, like someone had just thrown a match into my soul. I picked up speed now wanting to get to the stadium and get the concert over with. I flew fast, faster than before. I looked over to the city; the buildings were regaining their normal ways again. I came to the entrance of the water stadium, there I say many parked zoomers and many people walking in. Families, wives, husbands, children came. I flew past all of them and into the back of the stage, where I always parked. My head shifted and I saw their zoomers all parked in the little slots… my heart stopped for a moment. I drove to the one that said “Diva” in big letters, there I came to the ground more and turned the engine off. The zoomer’s pads came and I felt the plump hit to the ground. There I sat looking down to the pure cold ground… feeling the tears starting to come. I’m hoping someone would come for me… just hoping. “Nephra.” A sweet young girls voice hit my ears. I looked over at her, my hair swaying to the ground. A big clunk was heard when my hook of the braid hit the ground, my ears twitched for the moment from the loud noise. I saw Keira, Samos’s girl, a loving girl. Her hair was green as ever just like I remembered it two months ago. She wore nice clothing, more nice than my braw shirt and half dress. I smiled, trying to hide my sadness. “Every one is out back waiting for you, they want to talk to you before the concert begins.” Keira had a sweet voice to me, one that would touch anyone’s soul… just like mine. “Okay, I’ll be right back their hun.” I didn’t want to but I had to, it was my duty. She smiled and elegantly walked away. Once she was gone I slammed my head on the controls of the zoomer. “Why am I here?” I knew no one was around but still. My body fumbled to the ground tired and worn out. The last two months were hard…especially to Remi. To me it was good Remi wasn’t here… she needed time to cry to herself, be alone for now.
Rose-Remi Love White is my, and Tatsu’s child. She was born four years ago. She meant the world to him and me. Every day I would see him holding her, loving her in his stupid fatherly way. He would always try and make her say Daddy, or Momma, or Divaliciouse… that never worked out really. She had two kinds of eco in her system, Dark and Light. She got the light from her father and the dark from me. She was unique and with the eco in her she aged faster, her mind grew and so did her body. Now everyone presumes I adopted her since she looks eight instead of four. She was indeed the love of our life… she was our world.
I slowly walked to the back where the group was. I turned the corner of the stage and behind the curtains standing still looking my way were Ashelin, Torn, Samos, Keira, Jak and Daxter. To their right, standing behind them was Adelaide, Goro, Kiera, Zelina, Kylina, and Jake. I smiled to them all and made my way up. “Hello Nephra.” I heard Jak say in his sweet comforting voice. “Hello brudha.” I mimicked my families’ accent; it was fun and always gave me a thrill… but not this time. Jak’s hair was blond at the top but green at the roots. His eyes were pure blue and beautiful to me. He was wearing his same old jacket and jeans for when he raced, that didn’t surprise me much. Samos the green eco sage walked up to me, grabbing my hand softly. He was short and old, hair grey as the clouds coming. His skin was green like grass; it was the eco flowing through his body that made him so unique. The thing that freaked me out the most was that his shoes were log pieces and he had a log on his head. I shouldn’t be thinking that mainly because I wore no shoes and only just a braw shirt and half dress… along with my Tattoo’s that went up from my right breast to the right side of my face. “Are you sure you want to do this dear?” His elderly, fatherly voice kicked in. I smiled to him. “Yes, I am ready. The people need me now more than ever. I bring them hope to stand strong and fight for their beliefs.” I always did that, and it was true I knew everyone looked up to me, they saw me as a pure heart when in fact my heart was tainted of darkness. “Well if you ever need me, let your Eco flow.” Samos replied turning to his daughter. Eco was the source of life in our world. Green Eco made life, Red Eco gave power, Blue Eco brought electricity along with speed, Yellow Eco brought weapons, and dark brought destruction and light brought peace. Only few in this world could hold the Eco’s and call themselves sages. I was the sage of dark, I consumed dark Eco and was not affected by it, and except for when I grow mad my demon shows. Keira sweetly glided to me, she wrapped her arms around my waist and hugged me tightly. “I’m sorry Nephra.” She sweetly said. I was shocked at first but I returned the hug and smiled. “There is no reason to be sad child. Nor should you be sorry.” I had to be a mother too all that was my philosophy since I was little. “Oh come on! We all know you are sad and depressed, you have no right just thinking his death was okay to you!” Adelaide’s deep harsh voice yelled into the room. Everyone looked at her; Keira let go of me and returned back to Jak’s arms. Adelaide was tall for one of us, she wore a tight tank top and half pants, showing some of her skin at the tops. She had boots with horns, long horns at the bottom, on the metal part. Her gloves had the same horns but smaller. She had pure dark hair with red highlights. Her face was strong and powerful, eyes closed. She opened them up, revealing pure red eyes. “Stop it Nephra! Just stop! I mean come on we all know it hurts you and that it hurts us so don’t act like everything is okay.” Adelaide’s voice was harsh to me, of coarse she was angry and I don’t blame her. Adelaide was the Red Eco sage; she appeared to be more powerful than the Eco itself since only her eyes are red. Adelaide was the new leader of organization sin. The old leader was my husband, but since he passed away she has all the claim to the organization. She always seemed like a good leader to me. Her sin was Wrath as my husbands was sloth.
I just simply looked at her, my eyes were hurt of coarse but I couldn’t show them my tears. “This organization lost their most important member, we lost our Father! Our Mentor!” She continued to yell at me. Tatsu was always a father figure to them, he taught everything they needed to know, each one slowly earning their ranks as sages. “Yes, it does hurt me, it hurts deeply but I must live through it. You all have the right to be sad, I simply don’t want you to however. Every day I wake up screaming the top of my lungs off, reliving that night all over again.” I looked at her now; my words were true and righteous. I saw her face; it was crushed and vulnerable for anyone to attack. Tears slowly came down; I couldn’t help but walk over and take her in my arms, holding her for the moment. She wrapped her arms around me and began crying harder and harder. “Adelaide, you must stay strong, this organization needs you. Tatsu is gone, there’s nothing we can do about it.” It hurt me to say those words so much, knowing truly there was nothing I could do. Adelaide brought her head up to mine and looked into my eyes. “I know but still.” She let out more tears. She pushed herself away from me and back to the group of sins. “Adelaide never let him go, always remember him.” My words meant nothing to me anymore. They were just useless things in times like these; all I gave was false hope. Adelaide wiped the tears from her face and looked at me, she smiled. “I know, I’m sorry Neph.” Before I could reply she took off out into the stadium. The rest of the group fallowed her.
The group of friends looked at me now. They all seemed to want to leave and get to their seats before I go. “Hey Nephra, we got to go sit down, you show in two minutes.” Torn said in his rough voice. He was the Freedom leagues leader, he was the Chief in command of the army. I smiled and bowed my head. “Of coarse, go now.” I wanted them to leave now, being with them just hurt to much. All of them walked off of the stage and into the stadium, all but one, Jak. Jak looked at me for a moment. “We’ll miss him… he was my brother you know.” His ears were now pointing down. “I know… as you are my brother now. Jak he wanted you to be Remi’s godfather, her guardian in case anything happened.” I had always remembered that no matter what. I told Tatsu when the time comes I’ll tell him. The time came and I was ready for Remi to have her godfather be Jak. Jak smiled to me, his ears rising now. “I’ll be happy to be the little rug rats godfather.” He walked up to me and gave me hug. I hugged back. “Go along now, get to your seat and tell the others I am going on stage.” I pushed him out of the area and walked back to the curtains.
Here I go, Here I will sing for the crowd of thousands and make them happy… make him happy. The curtains opened and I walked further up. There I saw a microphone standing, waiting for me. I grabbed it and began to remember him. “I am here today to sing to my husband. I am here in his honor to remember him and for all of you to remember him.” I couldn’t believe I was doing this now, how could I? I set the microphone down and stood back. My feet lightly glided back to where I was three feet from the microphone. The crowd stood silent here I am scared now. “His ring is sitting by the lamp, the one he brought to me. It blocked the people, it stopped the time, He’s never leave that one, so he cant be really gone.” My voice was loud enough to hit the whole stadium. I saw everyone’s mouths dropped I was shocked. I wasn’t going to stop now, not here not ever. “The dress he bought on Christmas Eve, he laughed and said it called to me, It's like it’s waiting in the closet, For me to slip it on, So, he can't be really gone, I don't know when he'll come back, he must intend to come back, I've seen the error of my ways, Don't waste the tears on me, What more proof do you need, Just look around the room, So much of him remains.” I started to remember the first time we met it was in Havens prison.
I was running through a dark hall, the guards chasing me, shooting at me. I was determined to find him, to find the sage and set him free. Looking at the cells I finally came to one with a man in white in it, Tatsu. I kicked the door open and ran in looking at him. I was horrified; there were thousands of scars on him… he looked like hell itself to me. I started to act; I grabbed his chains and unlocked them with a key I stole from the guard. “Who’s bothering me?” He asked in a low voice. “My name is Nephra and I am here to help you sage.” I replied in fear. “The only thing beautiful in here is you now, use to be the wall.” He chuckled at that. I smiled to, when I released the final one he fell down, I caught him right before he hit the ground. “Come on.” I pulled him out. I then ran to the garbage shoots. “Ready.” I had already pushed him down in and I went after. Before long we landed in the slums of Haven.
I looked out into the audience now. I knew I had to continue. “His book is lying on the bed, the two of moons to mark his page, now who could ever walk away at chapter 21, so, he can't be really gone.” I felt tears coming they were rushing fast now. I looked away from the crowd. I heard them all gasp, then felt a sudden pain in my legs. I looked down and saw I was on the ground, my eyes were full of tears my heart hurting more and more. I looked up and saw Jak running over to me, I knew I had to get out of here. I got myself back up and started to run, I ran fast. I passed the organization; Adelaide smiled to me and put her hand in front of Jak to stop him. I was out before I heard what happened. I rushed to my zoomer; I jumped on it and started it. Before long I was off and over the water. Tears formed more and more. My heart hurt more and more, nothing I could do would make this sadness go away. The zoomer went fast, before long I was at the beach, his and mine. The zoomer came to halt and it landed on the ground. Shifting my body to the side I jumped off and ran onto the beach. I began to remember his proposal to me… the day he became my fiancé.
It was a warm evening, his hand was wrapped around mine and we walked perfectly out on the beach. He wore shorts and a tank top for once in his life something typical and not unusual. His skin was soft and he was so perfect to me. We came to a stop and he looked at me, I smiled to him and wrapped my arms around his waist. He smiled back and kissed my forehead with his nice, light lips. I chuckled inside and returned the kiss by kissing his neck. His neck was smooth, sweet in my opinion. “How long have we been seeing each other?” He asked putting his arms around my waist. “A year now.” Something was up and I felt it in my blood. The year was rough on us and I knew it so much it wasn’t funny anymore. Him being a sage was the best thing to me, by the next year I became a sage. “Well…” He let go of me and grabbed something from his pocket. My heart had rushed and the blood rose to my head I was amazed at how easily I could be love struck so fast. He bent on his knee and out came a wedding ring, before he could say anything I had jumped on him, yelling yes I would. This memory was dear to me it was truly wonderful. I looked out to the beach and saw the water coming to me, I lightly sat down and looked further, tears still came down. I felt the next memory in me, the time Tatsu and me married.
Five years ago, wedding bells rang. I was walking down the beach in a white gown and flowers in my hands. That day was the happiest day of my life, the day I was finally taken. I held on to the flowers tight, not wanting to let them go. My heart was racing and my mind wandering. As I walked down I could see Jay and Victor holding my back dress up. Jay and Victor were muse brothers. They were a mix between a cat and a weasel. Those two were my family members, well what was left. I looked further along and saw the sage’s standing together. Tatsu was in black with a tie, while Samos our friend was holding a book. I smiled to them and walked further… my feet felt heavy and I was drowning in pure utter happiness. I saw my parents standing there, tears in their eyes as tears in mine. I walked up to the two and smiled widely. Samos began to talk and before long we were wedded. That was the happiest day of my life. I brought my lips up to his and kissed him sweetly. Thus our vows were sworn. My memories were fading now, like they were going to a distance. The finale one… the one that haunted me so much was the day he died… two months ago.
I woke up next to him; his sweet face was pure and loving. He seemed to be waiting for me to wake up. “Hey there big guy.” I said to him not knowing. His eyes looked at mine and he tried to smile but couldn’t. I saw this and got up. I picked his head up and noticed something was wrong. “Tatsu speak dear! Move, do something!” I remembered yelling. I was frantic at that time… for sure I had thought he was going… right there. I remembered Remi walking in and looking, I had told her to call the medics. An hour had passed before they came; I never let him out of my arms. When the medics took off I grabbed Remi and we headed down to the hospital. There I ran up to his room… the doctors and green sage was in there… Samos. They pushed me out, not wanting me to see him… that hurt more than anything. It felt like days before someone came out, I didn’t know what was going on… my heart was shredding more and more. Finally Samos came out with a sad face, his face was destructive and hard for me to know. I ran to him and started to raise my voice. “What’s wrong? Where is he! Can I see him!” I remembered yelling. Samos just looked up at me. “I need to call the group… Neph… I’m sorry but…” I ran past him before he could finish. My eyes were full of tears, tears of fear of losing my love. The room was filled with docters just walking away. I looked and saw him in the bed… eyes closed and shirt off. I hit the floor with my knees… right there I was afraid. “Nephh… come here please.” I heard him say weakly… that broke me. I got up and ran to him, I grabbed his hand. “Baby please don’t go! Please don’t do this to me!” I yelled crying. He looked at me and smiled. “Life is like a rose… Thorns along the way… but in the end it’s worth it.” He put his hand on my cheek and smiled. “Tell Remi I love her, make sure she becomes a great person.” He said after. My heart shattered and I knew this was the end… “Don’t, please don’t! you vowed to stay with me forever!” I yelled in pain. “And I will be… I love you neph.” He lightly kissed my hand… there he never spoke again. My knees hit the ground, my hand never leaving his. I stayed for an hour before Jak and Torn had to carry me away. They took me in the hall; tears were in their eyes too.
That memory haunted me every night. I would dream of him next to me, but then vanishes. I felt a hand on my shoulder; I was shocked but instantly looked up. There for a moment I thought I saw Tatsu… but it was Jak, my heart burned with a thousand flames. He sat next to me. I put my head on his shoulder, there crying for all that I lost. “Life is like a rose, thorns along the way but in the end it’s worth it.” He use to say… my love.
