Post by ariasuris on Aug 22, 2008 15:41:58 GMT -5
Okay I felt sorry for this board so I thought I would be the first to put something in it. Sadly the only thing I have ever wrote was a sort of sad short story. If I start to ramble its because I'm sick and my dog just stole my lunch, but anyway I put this in my blog on myspace a long time ago. The event happened my senior year of high school and still two years later i'm still shocked and saddned. It amazes me still because when I found out she died I was laughing with my friend bridget accually (now i'm even sadder) anyway ummm.... she got my cell phone out and saw I had a voice mail and when I saw who it was from I told her to listen to what crazy thing she had to say (usually she left me crazy messages) but bridgets face went down and said that she was cring I got the phone and found out that Madie had just shot herself on school property. Anyway here is the short story.
A TRAGIC DAY
As we got out of the car and walked to the church I thought about how long it had been since I set foot inside a church. Almost a year, and almost 2 years since I had been in that church. We walked through the door past the ushers and signed the guest book and took a program and as we enter the church were it was going to be held we all looked at our programs and read this
"If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me. I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today while thinking of the many thingss we didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, as much as i love you! And each time you think of me, I know you'll miss me too. But when tomorrow comes without me, please try to understand that an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand; she said my place was ready, in heaven above adn that i'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye for all my life, I'd always thought I didn't want to die, I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do, it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you. If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while; I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile."
As we read these words tears came to all our eyes we sat in silence for nearly 2 hours waiting for one of the worst days in a persons life to start. And then finally it started as i looked up I saw a 18 year old boy cluching his mothers had in comfort because she was in tears. And as the rest of the family walked in almost all were in tears. Then they finally sat down and as they did tears filled my eyes because as they weeled a white box down the isle i saw the 18 year old boy burst into tears. From where I was sitting I had a very clear view of his eyes and all I saw was hurt and sarrow. As the preacher preached the singers sang all I could do was pray, pray that this family would be okay it almost killed me to look at them. Finally it was over we were all in tears as we were ushered out the family wanted just a moment alone with there daughter. As we got into the car we tried so hard to find something to laugh about we finally found it in the parking. But when we finally got to the graveyard it was so cold we waited to talk to the 18 year old boy and when I finally reached him I was tring to be strong for his sake I could not think what to say what could I say he had already been through so much what words could god give me to help comfort him as I approached him god said to tell him that I was sorry for his lose and ask if he would be okay and so I did when mason looked at me and said he would someday a ray of hope came across his face and I then huged him twice. But as we made our way down the line to the rest of the family the ray of hope slowly faded the rest of the family was not being as strong but they were not being weak either they were in very deep griving but what can you expect and as I got to the mother tears were streaming down tiffany and my faces the mother Mrs. Cindy had just buried her baby girl it was the hardest thing I ever had to do to look into that womans eyes and tell her I was sorry for her lose. And as we finished up we went home we tried to forget but it was still there masons face was still on my mind and mrs. cindys as well but the father marty was so lifeless it was like the life had been sucked right out of him he wouldn't talk to anyone when I spoke to him he just noded. Finally it was all over we went to the car and went home and tried to forget we will prabalbly never forget. Maddie was so young she was only 14 and all I can think about is the song HOW DO YOU GET THAT LONLEY BY BLAIN LARSON what was going through maddies head when she did it I guess we will never know. But in closing I would like to tell maddie that she is deeply missed by her family, her friends, and people who didn't even know her like me her death sent a shock wave throughout the entire town. WE LOVE YOU MADDIE AND I PROMISE YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTEN GOOD-BYE.
oh and before I forget please keep you friends and families close because you never know when the last day is that you will see them i love you all thank you for reading this bye.
A TRAGIC DAY
As we got out of the car and walked to the church I thought about how long it had been since I set foot inside a church. Almost a year, and almost 2 years since I had been in that church. We walked through the door past the ushers and signed the guest book and took a program and as we enter the church were it was going to be held we all looked at our programs and read this
"If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me. I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today while thinking of the many thingss we didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, as much as i love you! And each time you think of me, I know you'll miss me too. But when tomorrow comes without me, please try to understand that an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand; she said my place was ready, in heaven above adn that i'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye for all my life, I'd always thought I didn't want to die, I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do, it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you. If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while; I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile."
As we read these words tears came to all our eyes we sat in silence for nearly 2 hours waiting for one of the worst days in a persons life to start. And then finally it started as i looked up I saw a 18 year old boy cluching his mothers had in comfort because she was in tears. And as the rest of the family walked in almost all were in tears. Then they finally sat down and as they did tears filled my eyes because as they weeled a white box down the isle i saw the 18 year old boy burst into tears. From where I was sitting I had a very clear view of his eyes and all I saw was hurt and sarrow. As the preacher preached the singers sang all I could do was pray, pray that this family would be okay it almost killed me to look at them. Finally it was over we were all in tears as we were ushered out the family wanted just a moment alone with there daughter. As we got into the car we tried so hard to find something to laugh about we finally found it in the parking. But when we finally got to the graveyard it was so cold we waited to talk to the 18 year old boy and when I finally reached him I was tring to be strong for his sake I could not think what to say what could I say he had already been through so much what words could god give me to help comfort him as I approached him god said to tell him that I was sorry for his lose and ask if he would be okay and so I did when mason looked at me and said he would someday a ray of hope came across his face and I then huged him twice. But as we made our way down the line to the rest of the family the ray of hope slowly faded the rest of the family was not being as strong but they were not being weak either they were in very deep griving but what can you expect and as I got to the mother tears were streaming down tiffany and my faces the mother Mrs. Cindy had just buried her baby girl it was the hardest thing I ever had to do to look into that womans eyes and tell her I was sorry for her lose. And as we finished up we went home we tried to forget but it was still there masons face was still on my mind and mrs. cindys as well but the father marty was so lifeless it was like the life had been sucked right out of him he wouldn't talk to anyone when I spoke to him he just noded. Finally it was all over we went to the car and went home and tried to forget we will prabalbly never forget. Maddie was so young she was only 14 and all I can think about is the song HOW DO YOU GET THAT LONLEY BY BLAIN LARSON what was going through maddies head when she did it I guess we will never know. But in closing I would like to tell maddie that she is deeply missed by her family, her friends, and people who didn't even know her like me her death sent a shock wave throughout the entire town. WE LOVE YOU MADDIE AND I PROMISE YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTEN GOOD-BYE.
oh and before I forget please keep you friends and families close because you never know when the last day is that you will see them i love you all thank you for reading this bye.
