O'Valentines [wip]

[Tatsu]

Rain falling down upon my face, I feel so relieved and free. Under the watery drops of rain I can freely cry and feel what I always wanted to feel. Something that was taken from me a long time ago. As I let my rainy tears run down my cheeks I picture you next to me, sitting and holding my hand. Like we used to do. Your face bright and shinning with joy, it always brought happiness to me. Now as I look next to me, all I see is the cemented side walk and an empty spot where you should be.

My hands slid down my jacket and on the cement, its wet rigidness felt right in my torn and blooded hands. The sky turned gray, thunder roaring and lighting crackling. Just as my heart felt... gray and abandoned. We knew each other for a long time, eternity it felt to me. How things could go so wrong in less than a second astounds me even now. I know more than ever I can not change the past... my time with you has ended.

My vision grays, turning black and white. My once blue jacket is now a tinted dark gray, my shorts bright white as ever. I look around and see the color red, of lovers sharing their time together. Holding hands, kissing, and simply smiling to smile. As old Valentines approach, I continue to sit here on the cemented side walk, vision fading, memories leaking. Each day that has gone by when we parted ways I lost a little more of my sanity. Soon I will be but an empty shell.

You always hated Valentines, and so did I. For some reason the romance in the air always lifted me up to try and make you happy. No this time... this time I sit alone and wounded, hand leaking red of the love we once had. This Valentines, I look and see the many loves, and all I want to do is end it all. My once warm heart turned cold... that’s how much power you held over me.

Now I am happy you are spending this joyous day with your new love. I really am... but soon I wont see anymore as I take my first step into the street. Bright lights... the lights of peace and love... of what we once had. Happy Valentines my love, my gift to you is my beautiful silhouette end.

Love yours truly,

T.B.

[Tatsu]

(added some details and changed some)

O'Valentines

Rain falling down upon my face from the dark gray clouds above. I feel so free. Under the watery drops I can freely cry and let my emotions rule me. Feel what I always wanted to feel over something that was taken from me three years ago today. As I let the rainy tears run down my cheeks I looked to my right and picture you sitting there upon the wet cemented side-walk holding my hand and smiling bright to me. Your smile so sweet and pure to my heart, I could not help smile to... like we used to do. Now all I see is an empty wet spot where you once sat. Where you should be.

My hands slide down my light blue jacket, the one you used to where, and down my black shorts until they felt the wet cement. The ridges of the cement felt good to my torn and blooded hands. The sky grew bright in a flash then left, time and time again. Lightning crackling and thunder roaring. Just like my heart. The tears continue down my cheek.

We knew each other for so long an eternity to me, but in a split second it all ended. I was left alone... abandoned as you felt. How could things go so wrong so fast? That’s what astounds me the most. Thats what hurts the most. However I know now I cannot change the past to fix everything I have ever done to you, my chance has gone.

Now my vision grays turning black and white, the only colors I see is red. Red of the love people have for one another. Couples walking by on this joyous day, their hands glowing a bright red, of the love they have for one another. While I sit here gray as the cement. Abandoned. As old Valentines approaches my vision and memories begin to fade. Soon that all I will remember is the pain you brought me on that one day...and soon my sanity will go with it.

The tears begin to fade as I use them up. The blood pours into the street from my hands, and soon my body will fall back. Giving up on love and life. Soon my only thoughts would be to exist is to feel pain, to feel pain is to live. I will no longer love any, I would only grow to despise them and the love they have for one another.

You always hated Valentines, and so did I. However for some reason the romantic air gets me going. I would wrap my arms around your hips and squeeze you tight. Never wanting to let go. Now all I squeeze is the air. I would pull your hair back and kiss that spot on your neck you love so much. Now all I do is weep on the ground.

Don't get me wrong, I am happy now. Happy that you are happy. That’s all I ever wanted in the end. Happy that on this joyous occasion you are happily in the arms of your new love, the one who could sweep your heart away in less then a second.

As my legs lift my body up all I feel a numbing sensation in me. They move their own without my thoughts guiding them. As I walk into the streets I see your face flashing into my mind, your beautiful smile and heart flashing to my in the hour of my end. All I can do now for you is to give you one last gift... the silhouette of my beautiful ending. A close my eyes as the flashing lights of the car comes further.

I love you and I will always,

love,

T.B.


(This story does not pertain to anyone in r/l. It is just a work of fiction. A little romance if you will.)