odd and immature things I guess

[pinkeco]

Hello Im pinkeco,You may know me as admin and founder of Gold and Fury.I decided to come here cause there is something Ive been wanting to tell you guys,the reason I act the way I act.Born with a simple gift drawing.I sacrificed my time into drawing instead of reading causing me to become a classified student in most schools I attended.I didn't make good friends cause I was very shy,I didn't know how to act in a crowd of friends or do.When I went to third grade I was held back from bullying and the sadness that came over me then I transferred schools I acted the same way.I had no good close friend.The only thing I could do was draw so I can make friends in doing so I was just too shy to even stay with them so I left,sadly making enemies they would tease me cause of my physical appearance.I got worried and worried about what they said was true,though I was young and didn't think before making a move,I ruined myself and years of torment weighted me down.As I passed my preteens My parents decided to move out of the city and into the country.I freaked out but was calm cause I wasn't going to encounter bullies in school then I thought wrong.When I got to 8th I was retained once more.(I had a good close friend at the time,It was heartbreaking that I was held back)My parents grew more worried about my academics so I took a test figuring out my IQ.After a few days they realized I was one of the so called "Special students"My IQ in visuals was in the superior range,but my IQ in speaking was terribly low in the below average range.which meant I have to enroll in Special Ed and Speech and so on.I did not want to take them but I couldn't get out till they saw improvement.As I tried my second year of 8th I was always in the office eating lunch and doing my homework and the counselor told me that I should go to the cafeteria and sit around friends.I always shook my head and said I just cant.(It was rather a smart thing at the time cause there was so much food fights).Then I thought about it and when I finished my year they saw a bit or progress.Then one day I saw an empty table hearing into peoples conversations or watch their every behavior making small notes in my head.Then I thought if I can make friends if I was well humorous.I tried it a few times with success gaining some.Later I felt something missing I couldnt figure out what set of friends I should stay with.With time and money I changed my look over and over depending on what group of friends.The group I found where somewhat gothic.

To be continued I'm tired and its 3:35 in the morning
The point is...

Please dont think Im a weird immature person.I dont like being the problem at all and Im sorry for the way I acted.If you guys didnt like it you could have said something about instead of doing this.It made me rather sad.Its not easy to make friends when you are not good with socializing.I get angry cause Im scared I get like that when Im scared,Its like defense.I am also sorry if this is annoying you and that Im a deperate person for friends.I just dont know how to make friends and keep friends the right way.

[djpanda]

Well, hey pink, glad to see your here to join us for the first thing.
But darlin' I have to say, this is not the greatest way to introduce yourself.
Because for some reason, I seem to have trouble believing some things in that post.
Although, if you want to know something, it seems to me that you have set yourself up for the situations that you are in. I wasn't a very popular kid myself in school, especially because my English really stunk (English is my 2nd language, German my 1st), and I was put through various bits of crap, but I didn't let it get to me.
I actually pretty much embraced whatever oddities I had and just tried to be happy.
Maybe things are a different situation for you, but still the same theory is there
We want you to join us and to have fun here, it's awesome that you are involved, but at the same time, I really just don't see a point in you spreading your life story in here, because it makes it seem like your trying to A) get sympathy from people and B) drag drama from your site over here, if not even cause a subtle hint of accusation of plagiarism.

[pinkeco]

Well that just the problem I don't know what you guys want from me,I don't know what I did to make you guys move away from me,And finding this site got me aggravated cause One I'm very disappointed in you guys for not saying anything,We could have work things out and everything would have been ok.But do I get anything from you no I cant do anything if no one says anything.Second Im not and experienced Admin you should know that telling how crappy the site is especially Im the confused 16 year old,DVM is running the thing so I wouldn't care less if he did anything in it Im there for the visuals and ideas seriously some of the ideas here were from me.Now I embarrassed myself several times and wrote the summery for nothing.WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT!?

[djpanda]

what do I want?
Well, the best thing would be for you to take a deep breath, count to ten, and then exhale; done? Now realize this is the internet and nothing on the internet is worth getting so worked up about. Good and bad things come from the internet, all depends on what a person is looking for.
Now, I didn't say anything because it's not in my place to say anything, this is not my website so I'm not the one who decides whether or not to inform you of a new site build up or so forth. That's up do DVM.
Now,my opinion I'll humbly give, and I'm just speaking from what I have seen and come to understand:
No matter what we would have said, the website that is gold & Fury probably would have still been full of kinks and such, because for me, it's not so much you, not so much the website, so much as the lack of grammar use and the lack of thought and general intelligence shown on that site by various members. Not saying that users of Gold and Fury are idiots, but saying that several have a poor sense of expressing themselves or they don't care enough. I also have an issue with the maturity level there, and that is more of a personal thing. I expect people who I'm interacting with to be smart enough or intelligent enough, even if young, to comprehend the idea of various subjects.
I also know the situation of the site building because DVM and I know each other face-to-face, not just inter-face. i know the stories and I'm relatively good about filling in gaps with context clues. I read what goes on the boards. Experience actually shouldn't even matter so long as you have someone like DVM who is willing to help you out.
You only embarrass yourself because you let things get to you, and instead of going to talk privately you like to post it in public. Sounds more like a need for attention and lack of common sense on your part (but everyone makes mistakes of course). If I were you I would seriously consider dropping the grudge or any angry or upset feelings, and just kinda start trying to see the site as half full. Start over and start fresh you know?
The fact is Pink, you seem like an interesting and cool person if you chilled out a little, and from what i've had a chance to see, you seem talented, but until you realize that you don't need to over react over things like the internet, you will have a problem with people ON the internet.
you need to gain some maturity and learn to handle things a little more properly.
Not to mention, I want you to be happy and have fun.
That is all I want from you.