Post by Tatsu on Oct 19, 2010 1:34:17 GMT -5
Note: Everything in this story is fiction. Except well me, yes I describe myself! Pay close attention dearies.
Anywho I decided to practice writing once more and what a better way than first person? However I don't know why I chose this topic... Oh well... enjoy!
As I sit here in the rain. Tired of looking at my desktop screen. I think, how can I compete with that? She is everything and I am nothing. Through countless hours we would talk and laugh, we would tell our simple tails of our life. All those words we said… were they lies? No I cannot believe they all were for we had a truth in them.
The rain pours down my dirty blond hair, going into my left eye green and my right eye blue… hiding the tears I am making. Over who? Someone on the computer? No not just someone… they meant a lot to me, I would wake up every morning with the delight to know I could speak to them about my day. I was in darkness but then they came and saved me… showed me how to live.
My clothes are soaked my eyes are red. I look out into the distance at a happy family running through the puddles. I died a little inside at that thought. Pathetic I know… how one can cry over something so little. I cant help it… my family was separate… mother always alone brother a like.
How I want a family that wakes up and have a normal Christmas day. Spending it together… yet my dream was shattered. I relied on the person so much it kills me on how much. Was I that pathetic? Was the darkness that strong in my heart?
The family had smiles on their faces… beautiful. One thing the person taught me was something I will never forget. The family deserves their happiness so I stood up and walked on down the road. The many flashes of lights and puddles splashing in my face. Over time they all drowned away in my mind.
I withdrew myself from reality. I grew tired of it… tired of all its bullshit. In my belief… I defied that. To love life? Impossible for me. Yet I have. Walking slowly now I can hear the cars honk their horns at me. As cute as I am I don’t honestly care. I grew distant from them…
How I wish I were back at my computer typing my simple words and talking to the person. They mean a lot to me… but now someone has flown over and taken the person from my very grasp. How? How could this happen? I weep inside and die inside… yet nothing brings the person back.
Is this the end? Am I to move on and act as if I never lost something? I think of that saying “if you love something then let it go… if it comes back then it was meant to be… if it doesn’t come back… then no.” Really? To want the thing back is illogical… it left you and why must you try and fight for it back?
I have fought my entire life. I fought for my love yet she denied me. I have fought for my darling dogs yet they were taken. I can no longer fight… fight a battle I know I can’t win. The rain now clouding my mind. My vision, its blurry and every step I take counts. I feel the ledge, could this be the corner? Really?
I took the step and walked a little… a honking noise to my right and now… my life flashed before my eyes…a little to late. The impact to my hip shattered my bones… my head hitting the glass and my body flying across… yet the rain sweetly kisses me… now as I die here. Yet I still think of the person… why?
Anywho I decided to practice writing once more and what a better way than first person? However I don't know why I chose this topic... Oh well... enjoy!
As I sit here in the rain. Tired of looking at my desktop screen. I think, how can I compete with that? She is everything and I am nothing. Through countless hours we would talk and laugh, we would tell our simple tails of our life. All those words we said… were they lies? No I cannot believe they all were for we had a truth in them.
The rain pours down my dirty blond hair, going into my left eye green and my right eye blue… hiding the tears I am making. Over who? Someone on the computer? No not just someone… they meant a lot to me, I would wake up every morning with the delight to know I could speak to them about my day. I was in darkness but then they came and saved me… showed me how to live.
My clothes are soaked my eyes are red. I look out into the distance at a happy family running through the puddles. I died a little inside at that thought. Pathetic I know… how one can cry over something so little. I cant help it… my family was separate… mother always alone brother a like.
How I want a family that wakes up and have a normal Christmas day. Spending it together… yet my dream was shattered. I relied on the person so much it kills me on how much. Was I that pathetic? Was the darkness that strong in my heart?
The family had smiles on their faces… beautiful. One thing the person taught me was something I will never forget. The family deserves their happiness so I stood up and walked on down the road. The many flashes of lights and puddles splashing in my face. Over time they all drowned away in my mind.
I withdrew myself from reality. I grew tired of it… tired of all its bullshit. In my belief… I defied that. To love life? Impossible for me. Yet I have. Walking slowly now I can hear the cars honk their horns at me. As cute as I am I don’t honestly care. I grew distant from them…
How I wish I were back at my computer typing my simple words and talking to the person. They mean a lot to me… but now someone has flown over and taken the person from my very grasp. How? How could this happen? I weep inside and die inside… yet nothing brings the person back.
Is this the end? Am I to move on and act as if I never lost something? I think of that saying “if you love something then let it go… if it comes back then it was meant to be… if it doesn’t come back… then no.” Really? To want the thing back is illogical… it left you and why must you try and fight for it back?
I have fought my entire life. I fought for my love yet she denied me. I have fought for my darling dogs yet they were taken. I can no longer fight… fight a battle I know I can’t win. The rain now clouding my mind. My vision, its blurry and every step I take counts. I feel the ledge, could this be the corner? Really?
I took the step and walked a little… a honking noise to my right and now… my life flashed before my eyes…a little to late. The impact to my hip shattered my bones… my head hitting the glass and my body flying across… yet the rain sweetly kisses me… now as I die here. Yet I still think of the person… why?